1. Profile

The author Yeom Sangmyeong was born in May 12, 1960.

"Since swallowing a rat poison named R-H787 at my age of 17 in 1977, I had been in the miserably dying process before I was born again. Since then, I have been ill with type 1 diabetes which demands insulin injection until now. Now in 28 years since swallowing R-H787, there proceeds 'Parkinson's Disease' to an extent, another aftereffect caused by R-H787 poison.

I passed the qualification examination for college entrance May 1980, entered the department of Landscape Architecture Seonggyungwan University March 1982, was admitted to the Theology Seminary Chongshin University 19993, and received the ordination of ministry in the Presbyterian Church of Korea October 1999.

I was married to a woman January 1 2000, before I was divorced in 2 months. For 5 years since, my life itself began to get twisted so badly that later even stress-caused trauma plagued me.

In order to survive myself in the situation of getting insulin injection shot every day even in that process, in the condition of my optic nerves getting allergic seriously even to various lights as time goes by on top of the condition of being hard to bear all kinds of hot temperature such as sun light, hot weather, heat, steam, heater, stove, etc. since 1977, and plus in my symptom of new-developing 'Parkinson's disease', I have thought up all the best ways that I can so as to carry out with my body. I am still seeking constantly for something fresh new ways and still leading my life in a frenzy by collecting all my abilities that I can so as to outlet my own roaring sound within."

The work of writing a book is also just one of the countless everyday chores that I have confronted with the body in order to survive.

2.   ...Think about

My status is a minister.

In a man's prime days of 17~19, in the height of age where one is full of vigor irresistibly even without a woman passing by, 'my penis didn't erected a time for 22 months.'

So my body was.

With this body, I have endured myself for 26 years.

My character is that I have to live in the behavior far different from concept of 'being delivered from worldly existence' that sacred noble-minded religious persons often use.

Confess how religious miracle saved me and how amazing grace of God I have lived in, the very present body of mine is not the one made exclusively in the middle of devotions on the knees.

In the repetition of struggle after struggle such as genuinely miserable writhing, being mad wildly, wandering, raging and exploding, etc. I have attempted countless ways in order to have my own body made.

Still, I am making consistent tries by seeking for something fresh new ways in the countless trial-and-error experiences at intervals of the life.

In other more easy words, the present one of mine is "the body having been made."

Of course, these ones might have been my own exclusive knowledge and abusive words coming directly through my own life, through my own experience and through my own trauma.

Rather, I'd like to speak about 'Hope' that will guide one to the goal in life, as a minister in a church and as a fellow person with nervous concerns about the remaining time.

If one ever looked carefully at the dance, photos and sermons on my homepage(www.mryoum.com), that person might have known that my keepings are rather exceptional, such as my experience up until now, physical figure and dance motions, theological ideas, knowledge, trauma, etc.

In fact, through my conditions of the body, there is what I'd like to tell to the persons who live or have to live in the outside of our society, like seriously ill diabetic patients, patients suffering from progressive chronic disease, seriously handicapped people, etc. I would like to say "If I survive for 5~10 more years in the future though I have endured for 28 years in the baffling conditions like being hard to bear sunlight and various lights, hot weather, heat by various heat machines, light, humidity, etc. like 28 years of insulin injection career and plus like newly-developing complications by insulin shot for 28 years, this inscrutably baffling life of mine might mean evidently 'Hope' to some other patients."

I would like to deliver the message of 'Hope' that he/she can get to the goal in life, to persons who have to carry serious handicap with diabetes--be it ever so severe--and also to the other persons who are suffering from various diseases on this earth, if they are the 'patients who knows enough to adhere to fighting against themselves in their best wisdom.'

*** Only me was a personnel in the Book Publication 'Wailing Free Man'

The church overlaps even the same site that is required to register the business registration for the sake of publication. So to speak, I have been using the address of Door-211 Commercial Section of Dusan Apartment Building, 282 Byeongjeom-ri Taean-eup Hwaseong-si as either a church or publisher since November 2003.

Until bookmaking, I alone planed, contrived, wrote, and even basic editing was made in my own brain. I alone decided and registered the business name called the Book Publication 'Wailing Free Man'

Meanwhile, as far as typing is concerned due to the conditions of my body and eye, part-timer students shared it because there was no ways of my carrying out with fingertips the thoughts in the mind.

To add a good voice in this opportunity, for still other 'wailing free men' who have their minds full though they have presently much poorer physical conditions than others, I would like them to have their lives reconsidered by considering only the fact that the Book Publication 'Wailing Free Man' was born and subsequently some series were able to be published by a still-living soul, thanks to his unrealistic and dreamer-like Don Quixote disposition such as wildness, stupidity, baldness, harum-scarumness, etc .***

The dances, photos, sermons and theological thought that you see on my homepage(www.myroum.com), though they are my experience and trauma accumulated against the body for last 28 years and at the same time my knowledge accumulated preciously in the corner of the brain, are my work so that I may share 'Hope spurting through the whole body' through my yet exhibitable(?!) present body with the patients who have been losing hope.

As a diabetic patient, as a seriously handicapped person(?), as a minister, and as a Korean identity, I am showing my present life to others without concealment. and going to show it.

In the world--what I meant by others in the above is not just Korea--I am revealing my heaven-gifted and even dreamer-like megalomania(?) candidly.

I opened the homepage(www.mryoum.ocm) in 2002 when I didn't even know how to turn on and off a computer, on which I laid bare my body fluttering like mollusk. I set up the Book Publication 'Wailing Free Man' with only me in the personnel in 2003, on which I made my book with my writings of which at the slightest touch drops of blood were about to splash. I might be running wild with planning to establish an internet broadcasting station or satellite broadcasting station, if only my books sell to a degree.

I am reinterpreting in my own way the 'Wing' under the arm, which the genius writer Lee Sang dreamed of.

It is the 2005 self portrait of Mr. Yeom, a Wailing Free Man who flutters his wings in order to fly high over the information space and internet ocean towards all over the world according to 'age of global village,' though I am yet a beginner barely gotten out of complete computer-illiterate.